Playing: Guild Wars 2
Drinking: Matcha latte
Impossible for me to truly believe that 2015 is just around the corner. A whole year, come and gone. And a very awkward year, too, in my opinion. Spent the first three months of it hanging out in New York (was there for a week) and studying abroad in Europe (we studied in Rome, Vienna, Budapest, and Prague). Then once I got back home, I felt like I never had left, and the entire rest of the year up to this point has been so-so. Not amazing, but not terrible. Just very monotonous for the most part. And, hey, turned 25 this year. That's a bit crazy, too.
But, in regards to art (writing and drawing), 2014 has by far been the most unproductive year of perhaps my whole life. Sure, I got a spurt of motivation/inspiration during the summer, but by and large I have essentially done nothing. I did more in the summer than I've done all year. I don't know if school is to blame, or whether it's a low-key depression or what. It's very much distressed me. I still have stories (written and drawn) that I still haven't been able to continue work on. I still think about my stories and characters, so the interest itself has not died. I just haven't been able to actually work on anything. No motivation/passion/whatever you want to call it. And then I think about all those stories and characters and they become tied to specific memories: Memories of specific periods in my life, of experiences, of friends, etc. All of that just makes it more sad to me. It's been a very depressing situation, being unable to write or draw for the longest time. And what's worse, there are very few hobbies out there that I actually enjoy or could see myself doing. I've just been playing video games for the most part, and watching movies and TV, when I could have been drawing or writing normally.
Normally I would list drawing and writing as one of my New Year's Resolutions, but I think I'll refrain from that this year. Why? If I put them on the list and this slump continues through 2015, it will just be a failed resolution, and that is never a fun feeling to have. For now, my only resolutions for 2015 are to exercise, get through graduation in June, get a full-time job by or after graduation, and try to be more positive in general.
So, until next time, happy new year's wishes to all. And one of my biggest wishes for 2015? May there be happier people in the world. Being angry at each other doesn't help anyone. We as humans and as a society need to work together, not tear each other apart.